Let's not call them New Years Resolutions, but...

Things I want to work on in 2010:

-Have kinder thoughts

-Complain less

-Drive less

-Watch more movies

-Say yes more often

-Write (publish?)

-Get out in nature more

-Go on a real vacation

-Save my money

-Stay in better touch with old friends and family

-Volunteer more

-Get back into yoga

-Create things (not babies!)

-Sing and dance

-Read more books

-Play the guitar more often

-Be less anxious

-Learn new recipes to cook

-Keep my fingers out of my mouth

-Remember to have patience, compassion, and understanding!!

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Out of this world!

Avatar: By far the best movie of the decade!

and tomorrow makes five....

Five years ago today, it was all the same. I had my life, my job, my friends. I lived in a city where I thought all the good men had moved away. It was winter. I worked in a basement. I couldn't afford to heat my uninsulated house. I spent hours writing my thesis with gloves on. The passenger side door to my car froze shut. I had to drive alone. After work, I went upstairs to the bar. I ran into a friend who I had seen with a cute guy earlier. I said "Is that your boyfriend? He's cute." She said no and asked if I wanted to go out with him. I said no. I drank some more and then went home with allergies to all the cigarette smoke.

Five years ago tomorrow, I woke up and it was the same. I went to work. I got off early. I met my friend's friend. We drank a pitcher or two. We listened to Hank Williams and Johnny Cash on the jukebox. I sat on his lap. He climbed in through my driver's side door. I didn't have to drive alone. Or sleep alone. Or worry about the heat any longer.

Five years ago day after tomorrow, I woke up and it was all different. And it still is. And wonderful. Happy anniversary (tomorrow), C.